Welcome to Monsters Part 6: The Monsters in My Head

I was originally going to end this blog post with the Monsters Next Door post, but there's one more type of monster that I feel I should address. Those are the ones my mind creates.

There's no doubt that I have an overactive imagination. I was one of those kids who could make up a fantastical story on the spot (but I couldn't lie to save my life). I definitely remember being absolutely terrified by a giant spider in my basement as a kid that would only be able to get me if all the lights were off.

Now that I'm older the monsters my mind conjures up have changed with me. I still get plenty of nightmares where a monster is chasing/hunting me (usually featuring a talking velociraptor). I'll wake up in a panic and it'll take me several minutes to realize that I'm perfectly safe and can go back to sleep. 

There are also the nights were I wake up for no real reason and feel like I'm being watched or there is someone in my room with me. Since I haven't shared a room with anyone since college, it's a freaky feeling. Suddenly every shadow contains a vampire waiting to suck my blood or a ghoul ready to feast on my flesh. 

Lately I've been waking up with the mental image of what I can only describe as a combination of a plague doctor, a Hayao Miyazaki creation, and a tengu (click here for the wiki page on tengu) watching me from across the room. Some day I'll have to create a story or mythos featuring this creature. But just because it looks terrifyingly cool, doesn't mean I enjoy confronting this image in my post-nightmare haze.

An example of a Tengu

These imaginary creatures are great inspiration for my horror stories. I want to know what they are and what they do. Why they might torment someone. Are they a corrupted spirit or an offended god? Will it drink my blood or does it feed off my fear? How do you kill it?

Famous monsters that appear is video games, movies, and books are often used to symbolize a character's (or even the creator/director/author's) inner turmoil. Pyramid Head from Silent Hill 2 is said to follow the player around because they are the manifestation of main character's (James Sunderland) desire to be punished for what happened to his wife. Another example would be the dementors from Harry Potter. J.K. Rowling said that the inspiration for the dementors were a manifestation of her depression. Seems appropriate since they suck out all the happiness from a person, leaving them cold and empty.

Fan fiction writers everywhere, write me a story based on this image!

For some people, depression and anxiety are like monsters. The constant feelings associated with these mental illnesses can feel like a person is battling a monster. And like most monsters I have mentioned in this series, they can be very difficult to defeat. (However, please do not tell someone suffering from a mental illness that it's just in their heads and that all they need to do to be happy is to "feel less sad".)

We all have our personal monsters to face, but that doesn't mean we have to face them alone. Unlike the ancient heroes of old, we shouldn't be afraid to ask for help when confronted with a monster. I know I feel better if I have someone with me helping me overcome my fears and challenges.

Monsters take many forms in our culture. They can represent what we fear most or be used to symbolize our emotional health. Some monsters aren't meant to cause harm, but to teach people to look past someone's physical appearance. Other times monsters are able to seamlessly hide themselves in our society and are only identifiable by how their actions.

I don't think the monster archetype will leave our culture anytime soon. Instead it will keep changing to match what our biggest fears are and reflect which challenges we still need to overcome.

I hope you have all enjoyed my series on monsters. I have certainly enjoyed researching and writing it. I might visit this topic again at some point (I do write a lot of horror right now after all). If you feel there's something I've missed in this series, please let me know.

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